73/365 (2015)

I didn't realised that we have already passed 73 days of 2015. This is far too quick! To be honest, weekends always pass so damn quickly and all that we know, another week has passed again. This is like only one of the few posts I have posted in 2015. Have been too busy to come onto social network, or for the fact that WORK everyday just drains you out. You barely have that few hours when you're home and the next thing you know is that you're back at work. It's a really mundane routine. Searching for other options for fear that I cannot make it for my confirmation test the second round. I really do wish I can pass it and leave the company, that way people won't think that I'm incapable (as told by my friend) and that really made sense though. I will try my best for that then.

I really find that trusting people is sort of like toying with your feelings kind of thing. Know why I am saying this? Well, because I totally trust the buddy whom I first went in to work and she was like the first person I came to know of. But it turns out that, she really hated me because she finds me pretentious and the way that I behave irks both my buddy and one of my clique for lunch. I don't really get that because issue here is that you guys are always saying me so, in order for me to defend myself, i would definitely have to behave in that sneaky behaviour isn't? But this incident has also taught me something. That is not to be like this anymore, I've changed. Thanks to this two person who have made me realized that I should grow up on my end too. And also, addition to that, I am no longer that naive to put that 100% trust in people anymore. Just find that, we do our own shit and at the end of the day, they wouldn't be the ones who would be spending the rest of the lives with you, so why bother? Told my family and boyfriend about it and their only advice is, "Just don't care them lor, you have us what" This makes everything better.

I don't know what I have in time to come, but I am looking forward to it. Whatever has in store for me would definitely make me a better person. That's all I really know about it for this period of time I have spent my life in the working world and being an adult. Experiences learnt here would really make you miss school a lot because those were the days where you need not worry about shit and all that you have to do was bother about your exams. If I ever have the opportunity, I would want to go back and take my degree again. Because, after all, I really do want to escape from this adulthood for a short while.

"In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years."